Sunday, December 30, 2012


Stevie Nicks may be one of my favorite performers of all time and my favorite song of her is Landslide.  I think that over my life the song has meant different things to me and again I find my interpretation is changing as I listen to it this morning while packing away Christmas decorations (*sigh*).  Tearing down the tree, carefully tucking away ornaments, and listening to Pandora (Beatles radio as you would have it) when Landslide comes on.  I pause and cock my head to the side.  Eyes closed and my body involuntarily swaying just slightly, I remember.  In the course of that short song I see two decades of life pass in a flurry of memories tied to that one song and when it ends a tear rolls down my cheek.  Again, the song has new meaning and I was struck with the need to share not just this moment for me but the brilliantly sweet lyrics. 

I took my love, I took it down
Climbed a mountain and I turned around
And I saw my reflection in the snow covered hills
Till the landslide brought me down

Oh, mirror in the sky, what is love?
Can the child within my heart rise above?
Can I sail through the changing ocean tides?
Can I handle the seasons of my life?
Mmm, mmm, mmm

Well, I've been afraid of changing
'Cause I've built my life around you
But time makes you bolder
Even children get older and I'm getting older too
Oh, I'm getting older too

Awh, take my love, take it down
Awh, climb a mountain and turn around
And if you see my reflection in the snow covered hills
Well, the landslide bring it down

And if you see my reflection in the snow covered hills
Well, the landslide bring it down
Oh, the landslide bring it down

~ Stevie Nicks

Now what does this have to do with Estelan?  A great many things actually.  My writing is so tied to my emotions, especially with Estelan and I have been rather emotionally numb over the past month or so and my writing has been sub par at best.  (OUCH! That bit of honesty hurts)  The fact that I could get lost in a song this morning tells me that I am turning the corner and heading into a season of productivity.  I am going to finish up my Emerald Seer Series as the ending is finally coming full circle and then it is back to Estelan.  I have tabled her for too long and she is gnawing at the back of my mind constantly, building story lines and adding characters and oh my does she have a lot in store for you all - if I can just get it out fast enough!

In the end, as this wretched year comes to a close, I am excited to head into 2013 with a head full of Estelan to balance my heavy heart.  I will have a regular schedule for the first time since May and the tools at my disposal to re-launch my writing career - a wee bit wiser and more prepared!

Happy New Year!!

Tuesday, December 11, 2012

Oh Estelan, where can you be?

I have neglected my blog and the world of Estelan - one of the worst things a writer can do.  While Estelan is always rolling around in the back of my mind, the plights of her people a soft cry in my ear, I have been so occupied with another story and my own personal life that she toils away waiting for me to find time to continue her story.  Fortunately, Estelan like all fantasy worlds is always there for me to pick up and set down as needed.  It is a story of paths that wind and cross, climb and descend, much like life and sometimes that means dealing with personal roadblocks to make better storylines.  This is one of those times.  2012 has not been kind to me in many ways and that means I can do nothing but look forward and keep trudging through.  That means I can look to Estelan as a therapeutic escape over the next year while my characters work out their own issues on paper in a land far from here where I have toiled long enough.

So it comes to this, in order to find my way to Estelan again, to find that place in my mind where she and her people can thrive and their stories unfold, I need to purge myself of the negativity from this year.  It has taken me some time to adopt a way to make this happen but I believe I've got it down.  Each day I will blog about two things, one negative that happened this year so that I may send it onward and upward and one positive thing in my life that keeps me moving forward and focused on the wonders of each day.  By the end of the  year I should be able to expel that negatives as I purge many things from my life in hopes of starting 2013 a lot lighter spiritually and emotionally so that I may do justice to the peoples of Estelan and release Echo Rising this coming year.